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カルミア Kalmia
Kalmia
song by Tsukuyomi
Lyrics: 心に欲望が住んでいて 欲しいものが手に入らない度 爪を立てる 痛みは感じないのだけど 呼吸にさえ紛れてしまうほど鈍く疼く Within my heart resides a desire Whenever I don’t get what I want, I claw at it I don’t really feel a bit of pain, but The aching’s grown so dull that I even mistake it for my breathing どうか笑えますように そして満たせますように 胸に空いた穴を手で塞ぐように 隠す Please, so that I’ll be able to smile And then so I can feel fulfilled I use my hands to cover the hole that’s opened in my chest いつかは喜びも悲しみも気付けば全部消えてしまって 感情のない日々が根差していく どうすれば 虚しくて不甲斐無い私を「全部正解だ」って 許せるのでしょう 解らないよ Someday, all the joy and sorrow will vanish before my eyes And the emotionless days will take root How am I to forgive my hollow, worthless self By saying “everything is right”? I don’t understand 後悔は感じないのだけど 閉じ込めた気持ち 内側に軋む痛み I don’t really feel a bit of regret, but Within the feelings I’ve locked away There’s a pain that keeps creaking これで笑えますように もう傷つかないように 抜け落ちた淡い感傷に浸るように 沈み込んでいく So that I can smile about this So that I won’t get hurt anymore I’m sinking down, like I’m immersed in the ruins of faint sentiments ずっと誰かの幸福の形を 心に押し込んで騙していた 埋まることの無い一人遊び 体温が滲んでいく そんな風に 喜びも悲しみも気付けば全部消えてしまって 感情のない日々が根差していた For so long, I’ve been shoving someone else’s form of happiness into my own heart, doing nothing but deceiving myself Playing this solitary game where nothing will be filled up The warmth of my body is leaking through, just like that All the joy and sorrow were vanishing before my eyes And the emotionless days were taking root どうしても 拙くて 変われない 私の全部 抱えて生きて 間違いだらけでも、気付いていく 冴えない日常に 芽吹いていく No matter what, I’m inept and can’t change, but I’ll live with everything I’ve got in me Even though I’ve made a lot of mistakes, I’ll keep noticing them They’re sprouting in this sullen, everyday life
